By: Shadri Aslam Shah
I was afraid of my life. I felt very sorry to myself and my condition that what I was; full of ego, wanted to stylish, look beautiful, etcetera. Yes! this is my story which began and my life’s troubles started. I hate myself because of arguing to my parents over tiny things.
I was truly a good student. I never talked in class and never behaved rudely, which was really satisfactory. When I was in my primary classes, I was a good student and a position holder in the class. Because I had good friends. But they were very mean (and I hope they will be good someday in future).
When I was in my fifth grade, I was stupid and silly. Because I had new friends. I never gave attention to my class. I was kind of a genius student in my class. But I did not give attention to my class, which made it a serious problem to me. If my parents knew about it, so it would be a very big problem and they would scold me. My biggest mistake was that I never wanted to be changed.
Actually, I thought I was cool, but I was not, rather I was stupid. Although I was never failed before, but in my fifth grade I was failed in many class tests. I also failed tests in my English academy. I felt very sorry for myself. What I was. I did not know what kind of a student and a person I had become. I realised it late that I was wrong. So, I worked to change my hobbies and friends. I did not sit with my friends who were not used to reading and did not care for me either.
I am sorry today for what I was. But I promise to myself I will change again. This is the hardest time I am going through in my life but I will change very soon, I promise. What I was and what I am are two dimensions. But I will change and be what I was.
The writer studies at DELTA and is based in Turbat.
Published in Daily Makran Times
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